To Mommy and Daddy

Okay, yes, we're mere sprouts before you. You've lived what we're living. You know how we feel, and you think we're silly and should be putting all this wasted energy into more productive things viz, school. You provide for us and we live under your roof, and reap what you've sown for us. You deserve love, affection and gratitude. What you get is talking back, arguments, and shouting matches. What ingrates we can  be! Back in your day. . .........You know what? Let me speak for your offspring when I say NOBODY CARES! The times are changing! Listen to da man, Bob Dylan. We have it bad too. Didn't you fight with your parents when you were our age? Didn't you rebel? Okay, maybe you were a goody two shoes. That's not me. I want to do what I want to do. When will you understand I'm an artist, not a scientist? When will you understand that I have a mind of my own, capable of making decisions, which needs only assistance, not pushing? Let me grow, experience, experiment. School is overworking me. I really can't handle certain days. I get angry, I might argue with you, fight with you. Don't be so scandalised. You have your bad days too, and I'm your vent. You scream and shout at me, and I don't really have a choice but to sit and listen, because I understand. You've had a hard day. Why don't you try to understand me the same way? You have loved me, nurtured me and raised me right so far.  But, I'm growing, and you need to adapt with me. It's not easy, but we need to do this together.

To the Child

No one loves you. No one GETS you. No one knows the pain you've felt or are feeling. You're the only one. Everybody is against you, especially mommy and daddy. What would they know? They grew up in a different time.
Sound familiar? Feel familiar? Then you're probably between thirteen and nineteen years of age. I.e:A teen.
You've felt it all, haven't you? Happiness, pain, Rage, anger, spite, jealousy, hatred etc. All of which, you've learned to hide, as you've been taught to do. "Boys don't cry" "Good girls don't throw tantrums". That's what you've been taught. Well, let me tell you something: Boys, don't be afraid to cry. It's a human show of emotion not limited by gender. Girls, please don't hesitate to throw hissy fits and temper tantrums whenever you need to.
You might have noted that I skipped love while listing emotions. Love, or what we perceive to be love is something so fickle and cruel. You probably have had or have that one person who you think is going to be by your side forever. Not just romantic relationships, mind you, this applies to friendships too. Sweetheart, the bitter truth of life is, 'forever' is a lie. Everything will, sooner or later, run it's course, and if you haven't been on the bad side of a parting which ultimately resulted in this realisation, brace yourself, because, it's coming. Now I know it's a very pessimistic thing to say, but you need to suck it up.
You're not the only one, no matter how unique you think you are. There's always someone who will 'get' you. They might not be there yet, but trust me, it's worth the wait. You are who you are, and you are amazing, no matter what anyone tells you. Just work hard to achieve what you want.

To everyone who has ever put anyone down. The bullies, parents, 'friends'

Let me just say this: Words hurt more than any beating can. I’ve been put down way too many time for my own good. It’s true, I’m not exactly the best person to be around, but I still don’t deserve to be made to feel so horrible about myself. Yes, I like boys too, don’t make me feel as of I’ve murdered someone. Yes, I’m not super brave and macho, don’t call me a wimp. Yes, I can’t study, yes, I can’t be the top scorer in the world, don’t make me feel so inferior. I may not he the best looker in the world, there’s no reason to point that out. I may want to dress differently, don’t make me want to strip naked. I may want to show my love for someone in my way, don’t make me regret it. 
Don’t lead people of the cliff. They don’t deserve it, just for being different. You may want to be assertive, you may want to be ‘cool’ around other people, you may think you’re pushing me to be better, you may think it doesn’t hurt. Trust me, it crushes me in and out. I cry into my pillow every night, just because you were trying to be funny, or were just trying to 'help’ me. I lost all faith in myself because of you. I lost my confidence because of you. How does that feel? You still think you’re doing the right thing? Do you still feel cool? Do you still think you’re helping? 
I may not say or show that it hurts because I’m scared. Scared that you’ll see just how vulnerable I am. Scared that you’ll hit where I’m weak. I’ve thought of killing myself because you made me feel like that was the best option. I hurt myself to make the physical pain mask my emotional pain that YOU caused . Stop, please.

My life so far

I've been a pathological liar ever since I could talk. I don't know why. I lied to everyone about everything, my parents included. I ignored my academics for the want of books and television, and with two working parents, that wasn't hard.
   As is probably obvious, it caught up to me. Lies started unraveling like balls of yarn. My slacking off started showing on my report cards. I lost the trust of everyone, including my parents.
  Instead of realising this, I lashed out. Against my parents. Against school. Against my friends. People hated being around me. I hated being around people. I made the wrong kind of friends and became exceedingly notorious in my behaviour.
  All this was made all the worse to deal with after I started realising the truth about my sexuality. I'd known since the age of eight that I liked girls, known since the age of ten that I liked boys. Realising that you're bisexual when you're surrounded by hormonal, homophobic males all day is hard. (Pun unintended).
  So, from the age of eleven to fourteen, I was an emotional wreck. Cried into my pillow a lot.
This year, academic year that is, I decided to come clean. No lies. Complete dedication to my academics. It was liberating. I "came out of the closet". Told people I was bisexual. Most people treated me slightly differently, but not too differently. There were those arseholes who refused to touch me, but I don't need them. My friends hate it when I show that side of myself, but, I have no one else, so might as well go with it. I have a friend. Okay, someone who means much more than a friend to me. This one person helps me through everything. She's my support system. And then then there's my girlfriend. Now, people have often asked me," Dude, if you're bisexual, how come you have a girlfriend? " Let me tell you something, okay? BIsexual. It means I like girls AND boys, okay? Anyway, life is good .Screw good, it's awesome. Just because I stopped lying. To everyone. To myself
  If you're reading this, and you relate to this even slightly, remember: Just come clean. It helps.  And find someone who'll listen, who will help you through it. You need that someone.

Are we Human? Or are we Dancer?

I don't like human emotion. Resentment, Jealousy, Hatred, all feelings we could do without.
  Let me explain. If your read my post on friendship, you will get to know that I lost a very close friend recently. I'm not going to elaborate on that, but let's just say it hit me hard. Too hard. I cried. A lot.
   Anyway, I recently read something this *friend* of mine wrote. It was beautiful. I still feel very strongly about *friend*, so I complimented her on it. But somehow, I was feeling very, very jealous because writing was the ONE thing I had. The thing that everyone complimented me on. 
   So, while I should have been happy for her, I resented her for every bit of it. And I think that SUCKS.
   Why do we, as humans, feel the need to be the best at everything? why can't we just be happy for people? Why do we feel the need to be the dominant person wherever we go?
  So, if you ever see anyone better than you, don't be a horrible arsehole like I was, be happy for them.

Stupidity.

You know, nowadays, we just throw the word 'stupid' around. I think this is because the true meaning of the word has been forgotten. That isn't to say that there is only one. There are levels. Allow me to elaborate
1) 'Girlfriend' stupid: This is when a girlfriend (or potential love interest) calls her boyfriend stupid. Usually when he does something large scale and/or extremely sweet for her. This avatar of the word is a compliment.
2) Boy's school stupid: This will be heard in social groups at school. This varies in meaning. It could either mean, the person in question is not at par in academics, or it could mean that this person is not very social and resorts to lame humour as an attempt to fit in. Be warned that this usage in particular is very subjective
3) Teen girl stupid: This for those who use 'blonde' or 'gay' as insults, call people sluts for being friendly or dressing a certain way, or make friends based on popularity.
4) Clinton stupid: I think this one speaks for itself. Bill Clinton. Former P.O.T.U.S.  Must have passed a few good laws. No one cares, do they. Because, our friend, was stupid enough to become the laughing stock of the world. If you are called Clinton stupid, you must have done something hilarious. Sleeping with an intern, for example.
5) Government of India stupid: This usage is reserved for the most ridiculous of actions. Banning homosexuality for being a 'social vice' and Banning one of the best comedy shows to have graced our planet, for example

Now you know how to correctly use the word stupid. If any of my 2.26 readers have any other levels which I might have skipped, please comment or email me

Friendship

I was watching an episode of Modern Family yesterday. Yeah, that's leading nowhere. I just wanted to somehow subtly mention that I'm a fan of that show. Excellent show.
                    Anyways, I was thinking about friendships recently, as one of mine has recently been compromised, and I realised that friendship is one of the most misguided concepts of the world. We think we're going to be Best Friends Forever with someone in school or college, and then, there you are ten years later, struggling to remember who they were.
           I've lost almost all of my friends, save one(That's my best friend, who, strangely, is the most antisocial person imaginable). There were two friends I though I'd have by my side forever. One was my best friend, the other, well, thinks I'm the devil incarnate.
       I've never liked people in general. I always felt that there were just these few people I was comfortable with.(Mostly female, because I feel most comfortable around girls, for some reason.) Lately, I've realised that that's not true. 
     Just today, for example, I met five wonderful people, who I'd previously presumed to be 'not my type of person'. I was so, so far wrong. They are the nicest, brightest and most talented people I've met, not to mention the most fun. (All girls, go figure). I had the most scintillating conversations of my life with them. Whether it was about how cute Justin Bieber used to be, or about a song whose chorus consisted of the word 'Vagina' repeated rhythmically,or bitching about a girl whose hair resembled the color and consistency of a broom, there was no point when I WASN'T smiling
     So, looking back, say, a year, if you're a student and a decade, if you're an adult. Think about your friends then, and your friends now. They'll be an entirely different group of people, save one or two. You're extremely special if they're the same.
         Don't think that I'm saying that you shouldn't make friends or something. I'm not. Friendships, however short or long, are the most beautiful things you'll get. Don't throw them away with worthless stupid words. Keep your friends close, because, there is no human being g who can function without other human beings to support him/her.
       Friends will leave you with the best memories. From playing pranks on random retail stores together to teasing each other about romantic interest which the romantic interest in question may or may not know about.